Tuesday, September 05, 2006
Confessions of a Mad Patient-to-be
i noe the last entry aint even 100% done
bt i juz feel like writing dis one down...
as always...i m mad.... i tink i m turning real mad...
did i oready say dat i haf fantasies of murdering ppl.... n den mayb....kill myself..? i tink i m going to b hazardous n harmful for myself n everybody else ard me.
the ting is...
i feel i m being push to a corner
i feel like i m going to snap n explode soon
real soon... any moment now....
i m using watever energy i haf left now to push myself to carry on...
bt it seems like i m going tru life, dragging it...n dreading it....
y? bcoz of the same old same old...
nuthing changes huh? i ges nt.....
i dun want to snap... i really dun.... bt how nt to? tell me how nt to? teach me how nt to! maybe its time for me to actually open up my bloody fucking mouth n say wat's wrong n wat the hell i m feeling...
mayb all i need is a new direction in life n dat is sumting i cnt find. it's suppose to b my bdae mth n i shld b feeling happy rite? i mean the slogan says "happy birthday" after all n y m i feeling more down den ever... bt den again dat's nuthing new coz i hate bdaes anyway... wat the fuck....
n having a fucking migraine doesnt help either! ARGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I FEEL LIKE BLOODY SCREAMING OUT LOUD juz to vent my fucking frustrations and anger!
LIFE'S A BITCH! i wonder wat those other ppl do to deserve such smooth sailing life.....
Posted by DiStUrBeD AnGeL at 2:29 PM